So hard

This world is so hard for me to live on. Everything seems to be hard for me. Everyone is making it hard. I've been living in a hard way all along that if something comes easy I will doubt it be a good one. Nothing good comes easy.

Jealous

Everytime someone birthday i go help people buy cake and do this and that. And everyone's birthday here got cake and present. But i got none for mine. Is that how the world works for me right now?

Exam ends

Current state of mind: Empty.

Liked the days I was studying in abacus lab.

I'm back at the lab now. No exams. No study. No nothing. I then asked a girl sitting beside me "Hey wanna fuck?"

She replied "why not..."

sweat....was joking here.

Do you believe in love at first sight???

Fuck. If you don't. Someone does.

My childhood dream

My dream of becoming a professional footballer for Arsenal shattered when I turned 24 yesterday. Maybe it was just meant to be a dream. A dream that only can be accomplished by editing myself and playing in Fifa 2010 or PES 2010.

I was having this dream since I was young. But to be honest, kids like us that had been brought up and raised in Malaysia, the chance of playing in Europe is totally slim.

Well, because of that, to be able to find a better living for generations after we have to study hard. Push yourself so hard until you stress yourself like hell to get a good degree.

And now, leaving aside football, I am studying for my upcoming finals. Wish me luck.

That girl right there.

She's beautiful. She's grounded. So real. She's perfect.

"She's perfect..." - Anton in Melrose Place

Random

There's a room, a small boy enters with a candle.

A man in the room, referring to the candle asked, "Tell me where the light comes from?"

And the boy blows out the candle and replied, "You tell me where this light went, I'll tell you where it comes from."